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Test of Faith

Those were my positive PTs in January of this year.  Just by seeing the 2 pink lines for the first time completely diminishes the heartaches brought about by ttc.  My eyes welled genuine tears of joy.  Then I envisioned myself - being able to utilize expectant mom's parking slots,  buying maternity and baby stuffs then holding on to my precious one.  We were in awe and we were both crying just for the thought that we are finally becoming parents after ages of waiting.

But the glee was cut short when after a few days the doctor rule out pregnancy's ectopic.  Indescribable.  I'm so lost for words.  I cried from the doctor's office until our way home and still sometimes when it passes through my mind or hearing someone's on their way again.  I just can't help it.



I have rested the journey until this came and brought me both tears of joy and sadness.  My husband said,  "I'm still happy.  Now we know you can conceive.  But not just yet for sure next time."  Then I cried again.  I'll just continue seeing the positive in the possibility that I'll be seeing my priceless pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.

To my family and friends whom I have shut down for quite a while.  while I'm trying to heal everything.  My biggest apologies.

From the bottom of my heart I want to thank you all.

And so my love affair with coffee continues... 

Ciao! 

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